親愛的代禱者：
Dear Intercessors:
神祝福我這星期可以三個早上禁食走禱（因為要做檢查，被迫禁食），非常好，禱告非常地迫切投入，更能體會神為什麼靠近靈裏憂傷軟弱的人。
God blessed me with the chance to fast and prayer walk three times this week (I had to fast for the labs and tests). It was great. My prayers were urgent and focused, and I gained more understanding on why God is close to those who are poor and broken in the spirit.
星期二斷層檢查結果出來，我的肝臟上的點，一大兩小，美國Donna醫生說不確定是什麼，說要再進一步檢查，台灣張簡俊榮醫生就先斷定是癌，聼了之後，得跑去湖邊禱告一個小時，直到裏面的平安喜樂又再回來。但是今天（星期五）早上，正子影像攝影的報告結果出來，肝上面的點完全沒有反應，本來應該是個好消息的，但是張簡醫生卻解釋說癌細胞也有周期的（在睡午覺嗎？），所以他還是覺得是癌細胞，我覺得這解釋的説服力太弱了點，追問了一下，他說化療6個星期後，在開刀之前，一定還會再照一次超音波，不會隨便切的。我這星期特別上網查了這位張簡俊榮醫生，在腸癌這方面還蠻權威的啦，我想他想把病情說壞到極點，才會越醫越好。
CAT Scan result came out on Tuesday. There were spots on my liver, one big and two small. Doctor Donna in the States said that she was not sure what they were and needed more tests. Doctor Chang Jian Jun Rong in Taiwan just came straight out and said they should be cancer cells. After the meeting, I had to run to the lake and prayed for an hour until the peace and joy returned to my heart. However, PET Scan result came out this morning (Friday). The dots on the liver were totally inactive. It should be great news, right? But Doctor Chang Jian said that cancer cells have cycles as well (taking naps?) so he still thinks they are cancer cells. I didn’t buy it. He said that after 6 weeks of treatment, before the surgery, they will do ultrasound again. They will double check before they cut off any part of my body. I spend some time early this week to do some research online on this doctor. Yap, he is pretty authoritative on colon cancer. I think he wants to describe my condition as worst as possible so there will be more rooms for improvement.
無論如何，我的淋巴結有反應，所以他還是會用比較重的化療葯（今天馬上開始），加上電療（星期一開始）。我聼過人說，沒有做過化療，電療的人，很難體會化療、電療的痛苦，所以，我知道將會有一場奮戰。但是問過每一個醫生和護理師，他們一再強調，每一個人的化療反應都不一樣，看過有人幾乎完全沒有反應的，所以不要踏入自己的預期陰影裏。有些人反應過度，其實最重要的，是自己的心理健康。我問助理醫生我要不要去自首，先把頭髮剃光，他說不用，除非我覺得光頭很酷。我問電療醫生，我到時候會不會行動不便，他說，不會，還可以跳tango!
No matter what, my lymph nodes had reactions during PET so he will use strong chemo medicine on me (starting today), plus radiation (starting Monday). I heard that only those who had gone through chemo and radiation will be able to understand the pain of these treatments, so I know that there will be a tough battle ahead of me. However, every doctor and nurse that I had asked emphasize that everyone reacts to these treatments very differently. They have seen people who have almost no reaction at all, so they urge me not to walk into my false assumptions. Some people overreacted. The most important thing is my mental health. I asked the associate doctor if I should shave my head first. He said that I don’t have to unless I think bald is cool. I asked my radiation doctor if I will have difficulty to walk or sit. He said, no, you can even dance tango.
我這兩天做完檢查的第一件事就是趕快吃，能吃就吃，三小時吃一餐，幾乎全素，加魚，從來沒有這麼想增重過。請為我媽媽禱告，我爸爸三月才過世，不到三個月又發現我有癌症，有時情緒很不穩定（請不要在Facebook 發佈我的病情，我的親戚都會看 Facebook，大家會傳來傳去）。我靠著耶穌，每一天早上走禱完，就覺得有活出美好的力量，相信這件事不會帶我進入死亡（精神上的絕望），反而帶我進入重生（活的比以前更健康、更愛神）。但面對周圍的親友，我禱告神給我恩典，知道如何能幫助她們堅強。
After the labs and the tests, I ate one meal every three hours, almost all vegetables with fish. This is the first time in my life that I really want to gain weight. Please pray for my mom. My dad just passed away in March. Now less than three months, I got cancer. Her emotional state is not very stable sometimes (PLEASE DO NOT post my medical condition on Facebook. My relatives read Facebook and the words travel around.) Every morning I do prayer walk and get close to Jesus, which gives the strength to live better. I believe this event will not lead me to death (mental hopelessness) but rebirth (a healthier life, more in love with God). My prayer is that I will also have the grace to know how to strengthen my friends and relatives.
代禱事項：Prayer Items:
1. 讚美 神祂已經勝過死亡、勝過一切的疾病，在祂沒有難成的事。因為這件事，神要在未信徒當中得著榮耀。
Praise the Lord that He has overcome death and all illness. Nothing is too difficult for Him. God will glorify amongst the unbelievers through this event.
2. 化療和電療的反應減到最低。為張簡俊榮醫生有智慧和啓示的靈禱告。肝上的癌要退化，消失（禱告和飲食已發揮功效），我身上所有的癌細胞都要退化，消失。六個星期之後，完全不用開刀，因為找不到癌細胞了。
Minimize my reaction toward chemo and radiation. Pray for wisdom and revelation for Doctor Zhang Jian Jun Rong. Cancer cells on the liver will regress and disappear (the effect of prayers and diet) and every cancer cell on my body will regress and disappear. After 6 weeks of treatment, contend for no sign of cancer cell in my body so there will be no surgery at all.
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