Waiting For My First Chemo

Waiting for my first chemo shot feels like waiting to be executed.  Why did I read and hear so many scary stories from my friends and online posts about chemo in the past?  It will ruin your life, you won’t like food, no hair wherever, fissure inside the mouth and vomit and nauseate like a never ending pregnancy.  I still have a chance to run out of the hospital before the nurses come to get me, disappearing into the crowd and just do my prayers and do my alkaline diet.  Should I stay to do chemo or should I run?  Okay, I am totally exaggerating here.

Why do I choose chemo at the first place?  There are so many online posts saying how chemo does not really cure cancer but alternative treatments, mostly natural food therapies, are much more powerful and more “humane”.  Well, I have never met anyone yet who got cancer, stage 4 cancer to be more specific, and testified that he or she overcame cancer with only those food therapies without chemo.  On the other hand, I met quite a few people whose family and friends with stage 4 cancer were cured with chemo along with a change of lifestyle. 

I read those food therapies very carefully, because I want to find an alternative myself.  It’s my life on the line here.  Disappointedly, those therapies never give me any real statistics of cure rate.  I have to believe them by faith.  What bothers me is the common negative campaign against chemo (negative marketing strategy), chemo’s low cure rate, while they don’t show their own cure rate.  Do they even conduct formal clinical studies?

Don’t get me wrong.  I am going for alkaline diet 100 percent during chemo.  I will be drinking alkaline water, drinking lots of veggie and fruit juices and eat all natural food.  Fish and chicken are allowed.  I will make my body “an environment unsuitable for cancer.”  I am going for both.

When my oldest boy Joshua was diagnosed with Infantile Spasm, I was devastated.  The curable rate was lower than cancer.  I did research and studied about ACTH, the first line of drug in the States used on IS, and learned some scary side effect vert quickly, so I was very hesitated to inject ACTH into him.  I prayed for an alternative.  I wanted to reject clincal medicine.  I forgot what made me give in, but I did.  Joshua was cure, from ACTH along with many, many, many prayers.

Misty Edwards was diagnosed with cancer, too, many years ago and she did not want to go to the doctors.  She was in a lot of pain but she wanted to stay in the prayer room and just believe in prayers.  Finally, Mike Bickle went to talk to her and asked her to go the doctor.  She listened to him and was cured.  Misty’s mom wrote a testimony about this.  A friend of ours, a mom of four, was also diagnosed with cancer last year.  She is a nurse and tried to do alternative treatment, avoiding chemo.  She did that for a year and now she is doing chemo.

Okay, after my blah, blah, blah, I was trying to assure myself that chemo is really okay.  Chemo people are not less spiritual people.  I am going for it, with many, many, many prayers.  If you see this, please pray for my cure and minimum side effect.